A Milestone, or a 2/3 Milestone

Today is another milestone for me.  I’m 8 months sober today (Oct. 25, 2008), WOO-HOO!!!! Awright!!! I hear the cheering now!  It sounds so……Oh, that’s from the football game, sorry.   For a present for myself, guess what I got?  I gots a new site baby!  I was reluctant to put this post out today.  Read on to find out why.

If you haven’t already, before you read this post, please humor me, read My Road to Recovery.  Go ahead.  I’ll wait right here for ya…..I need a Diet Coke anyway.

If your new here (most are at the time of this writing, it’s a new site ), and you get nothing, I want you to at LEAST hang on to that.  You know, you may not realize it right now, but you might need that information sometime in the future.  

“Wha!! Scott, you DON know ME!” you say with both hands set on your hips, doing that duck/chicken neck dance.

Hey, chill.  That’s why there’s more here for me to say…..

I know I don’t know you, I mean I know some of you, but I’m referring to you, the one who hasn’t been here or read it. I hope you never need it.  But if you do is all I’m saying.  You may not need it personally, but you might know, or even come to know, someone who could benefit from it.  That’s why I’m here.  For us.  

Anyway, among the other things I think I need to do today is to let some of these thoughts that I’ve been having on my birthday fester, and let them out before they eat at me.  So, guess who the lucky ones to hear them are….Yep.  You da man…er…woman..er, whichever.  So without further ado.  Give me a minute to relax here, never done something like this before.  Here are my thoughts as they randomly change.  It’s 10:24PM…… 

Some Random Ever-Changing Thoughts As They Come

I’m young, only 8 months old. Not even a year.  I’m a babe.  I’ve basically just started.  I can still see the wagon.  I’m still a bit scared at times.  I’ve got to go how long without drinking?  Forever? Really?  I can do it!  God will help!  Just think of where you were a year ago.  Should I start going back to AA meetings?  Nah.  I got my AA with my family, church family and my friends (old and new), and this blog.  That’s all I need.  And strength. That’s all I need, family, church family, friends (old and new), this blog and strength….that’s all I need.  And kids. I’ve got my kids. That’s all I need family, church family friends (old and new), this blog, strength, and my kids…that’s all I need (adapted from the movie The Jerk).  I’m so alive today.   I’m so happy today.  I love myself (See previous post “It was their fault not mine” I had to come back and put this in so it made sense).  I’ve grown a LOT in 8 months.  I hope I can help others like I want.  I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and dog-on-it people like me (old SNL).  Wonder where this blog thing will go anyway.  God said I would help many as many have helped me.  I mean, great your writing this and the people listening are going to think your a wacko.  Oh well, that’s the point, leave me alone.  I still remember it vividly.  Rehab/meditation session/asked God what was next and that’s what he said.  You will help many as many have helped you.  I got a post here somewhere that has that story in it, maybe they’ll search for it and get my stats up.  I’m not here for stats though.  LOL looser.  I gotta quit smoking next.  I think I’m done……yep.

10:30PM

I hope that wasn’t too boring or what not.  I needed to do that for myself.  Hey pal, listen, if your recovering too, and you’ve just started,  and your mind right now is just freaking out cause it don’t know what in the world you have done to it.  Just relax.  It don’t get much better  Lots of thinking now days, but it ain’t all bad.  

Thanks for listening and letting me share my time with you. 

Keep coming back

SC