Doing nothing is very hard to do – you never know when you’re finished.
- Leslie Nielsen
photo by eye of einstein
Let me see…how can I describe my day? Um, EXCITING!. No. EVENTFULL! No. How about motivationallessness? Ahh, yes. That’s it.
Motivationallessness – Having the quality of being less than motivated and a complete lack of desire to motivate others.
It’s my word, my definition. I googled.
When my feet hit the floor, it was obvious. Every ounce of me did not want to get out from under the warmth and comfort of my bed. Not a drop of adrenaline did I have.
I asked myself, “Did I sleep ok?” I think so. Except for around 1:30AM when out of no where there was a loud thumping on my ear. You know that sound that is heard when someone taps on a microphone? Yeah, that’s what I was hearing at 1:30am. No, I wasn’t at a club, or a concert. I was wrapped up in my dreams, sawing logs, sleeping is what I’m trying to say.
TAP TAP TAP TAP
“Chloe?” I thought to myself, not really awake but just sort of there. ”How is my cat making that thump on my ear?” I was sleepily perplexed.
TAP TAP TAP
Ok, alright. I rolled over ready to push the cat off the bed, and there was Austin, my son.
“Hey Buddy. What are you doing?” I croaked and groaned sleepishly, as I looked past his silhouette, peering at the clock.
“hmphr hhafgp lojlhkll hj hsh”, he said. We were both still asleep. I had no idea what he just said.
After much filtering and “huh?? What???”ing, it turns out, he had a nightmare and didn’t want to go back to bed.
“I think I ate too much before I went to bed,” I heard him say. Though I knew he hadn’t.
Anyway, he was back in bed by 1:35 or so. I don’t think that would have been the cause my motivationallessness.
I think….I think it was just one of those days where I didn’t need nor want to do anything. I needed a day to recharge, even after being off all weekend. I did have something to do every day this weekend. Didn’t get my normal recharge time in I suppose.
I did go to work. I did manage to force myself to write a few hundred words in my “novel” that I am writing for nanowrimo. But it wasn’t because I was really motivated. I felt bad not writing actually. I’m already behind by a half a day on the number of words that need to be written.
Even as bad as this day seems, it was still much better, like a million times better, than my best day when I was drinking. I must thank God for that. I take this day as a “Hey, Scott!! Your Still Real!!” day. And you know, I’m ok with that.
Thanks for stopping by and putting your ears on. Tell me something great about your day why don’t you? I would really love to hear it!
I think the Austin episode was probably the greatest point of my day. It’s been a while since he has woken me up with an issue. I’m just glad I wasn’t drunk! I would have missed that opportunity too.
SC
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