Getting Out Of The Rut?

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Looking back over the last month of posts, I almost feel I should apologize to you guys.  Almost.

I have thrown a lot of negative or depressing thoughts around my place the past month.  The Ever-Changing Thought was not so much ever-changing.  Kinda got stuck in a rut.

Apparently, January was NOT a good month for me, and that’s just going to have to be OK.  It has come and gone and if you are recovering from anything, even life, it’s just a wake up call that no matter how close we are to God, we are NOT promised a perfect life here on earth.  I can accept that…have to accept that, then move on to the next second, minute, hour, day.

We are given a lot of uplifting promises.  Here is one of those promises that keep me going:

1 Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. 2 Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.

3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. Romans 5:1-5 (New Living Translation)

I’m still in the rut, but I’m trying so hard to get out of it.  Often feeling as though I’ve  slid further into the rut than than I was before trying to get out.  But, I’m still trying.  Still seeking help from my Shepherd.  Still confident in my hope.

My faith is giving me joy.  In my seeking this joy, I realized today that this month alone has so many positives that all the negatives are just going to have to take a backseat, hopefully.

This month marks a milestone for me at work.  I have now been working there 10 years.  There are so many things I feel I could write about this milestone.  I guess my top 2 would be the fact that I have been blessed with such a job as I have and it be located in my hometown.  Not an hour away, but 7 minutes away.  The second is just being blessed with a job, given the current economic situations in our world.

Another milestone will come on February 25th.  That will mark my 1 year birthday.  1 year of sobriety!!! I’m just in awe.  Sure, it’s been rocky, but honestly, having God in my life has made this journey just completely amazing.  I wish I could take The Ever-Changing Thought all the way back to the beginning of my journey.  I’m glad to have you guys coming with me.

This may not be a milestone but on February 25th I am going to give up another vice of mine.  Smoking.  Ugh! I do dread it, but being able to beat alcohol (so far) gives me great hope and self-confidence.  You will be with me through this part of my journey….or else .

So, I’ve realized I have a lot to be happy about.  I hope that this month will be a more positive month here as well.  It should be at least until February 26th….then I might be a bit ill .

Got anything you want to quit this month?  Got anything you would like to start this month?

Because of HIM

SC