Do You Mind!?!

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One of the things I’ve noticed a lot of since I’ve given up the drinking habit is that my mind seems to be working a lot better.  Sometimes it’s working a little to well.  In fact, I think my mind is trying to be more clever than I am.  Annoying little bugger.

Have I mentioned what’s coming up on Wednesday?  I haven’t?  Oh, I think I have.  Wednesday Feb 25th, 2009, is going to be one of, if not the, most special days I’ve ever had and I am just stoked.

Just in CASE you haven’t heard, that day marks one year of sobriety for me.  I know.  Isn’t it just fabulous.  I’ve blogged so much about it in the past week, I’ll not bore you with it right now.  Obviously, though, Wednesday I’ll be blogging quite a bit about it.  Hope you’ll stop by for the party.

I’m also going to make that day the day I quit the other annoying habit I have.  Smoking.

So, yeah. Like I said, I’m stoked…but I’m also dreading losing another “friend” even though that friend is killing me.

So anyway.  My mind has been trying every excuse it can think of to talk?? me out of quitting.  Luckily for me, I’m not the drunk I was.

I’ve heard:

• “Man, you shouldn’t quit until after you decide what to do about your neck.  If you have surgery you just going to be nervous and gonna wanna smoke.”
• “You should only quit one thing at a time, remember?  You just quit drinking last year.”
• “You’re such a quitter.”
• “You can’t do it.  You don’t have the will power.”
• “HA! Quit smoking?  You’ve tried that before..loser.”
• “You’re almost out of cigarettes.  You should probably buy a carton and just smoke them all before Wednesday.”

So, that’s what’s been going through my mind.  I’ve figured out how to sneak in and hush it.  I simple say, “HUSH!”  I hope that’s not like talking to myself.  If so, I’m just going to have to deal with it for a little while.

Then I start thinking about the 1 year of sobriety and how I can do anything I put my mind to.

I also blow it off because I know I can do it with the help of God, family, and friends like you guys.  No one threatens me quite  like you guys or gal (Cricket) .

I guess I’m pretty excited because I can control my thoughts to some extent.  I still have times where I just can’t seem to get a grip on them.  Maybe someday I’ll be able to control all my thoughts.

Do you have control of your mind?  If so, what do you do to gain control of it?