Who Was He Talking To Anyway?

The Setup

^{A Blind Beggar Receives His Sight}

³⁵As Jesus approached Jericho, a blind man was sitting by the roadside begging. ³⁶When he heard the crowd going by, he asked what was happening. ³⁷They told him, "Jesus of Nazareth is passing by."

³⁸He called out, "Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!"

³⁹Those who led the way rebuked him and told him to be quiet, but he shouted all the more, "Son of David, have mercy on me!"

⁴⁰Jesus stopped and ordered the man to be brought to him. When he came near, Jesus asked him, ⁴¹"What do you want me to do for you?"
      "Lord, I want to see," he replied.

⁴²Jesus said to him, "Receive your sight; your faith has healed you." ⁴³Immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus, praising God. When all the people saw it, they also praised God. – Luke 18:35-43

Luke 17 and 18 were the chapters that was my reading plan for Wednesday night.  Prior to reading the reading plan was a day of worry, yes I said worry, about today’s mediation appointment.  Something about me, a dad, trying to get custody of my kids makes me worry just a bit.

Let’s Get Side Tracked

Sure, I posted a really cool quote the other night from Francis Chan on my Facebook status which went something like:

"Worry implies that we don’t quite trust that God is big, powerful, or loving enough to take care of what’s happening in our lives"

I got that from his book/audio book Crazy Love which so far I’m really enjoying. 

Having said all that it brings up something totally not at all related to where I was going and that is, I’m not sure where I stand on that quote.  Sure there is some a lot of substance to it but, because I worried does not mean that I don’t think that God is big, God is powerful, or that God doesn’t love me enough.

Being human, as I think most of us are, is there anything wrong with worrying or wondering if what we want is not what God wants for us?  Prime example in my situation is custody of my kids.  What if it’s not God’s will that the children are in my custody?  Is it not OK to worry or wonder until that final decision has been made, which will be when the process is over?

Back To The Initial Point

So, as I think I may have stated, I had been worrying a bit about Thursday and then I read this at the  end of the night and there was a verse in that final section of the final section of my reading that grabbed me, picked my up by my shirt collar, smacked me around a bit, a set me back down to read it again.  It’s more of half a verse.  Did you happen to catch it?

Re-read that up there with this in mind.  It seemed that my prayers to God on Wednesday were always me asking God to do this or that or to help me with this or that.  Maybe just ease my mind because I knew he has control of this.

The point  came to where just thinking about Thursday brought knots in my stomach and tears to my eyes I was so stressed about the whole mess.  Then, when I had just about had enough I read verse 41 and just 3 words prior Jesus asked him, ⁴¹"What do you want me to do for you?"

The second time, after being set down, Jesus was no longer talking to the blind man.  Who was he talking to anyway?  I felt as though those words were meant just for me and they could not have came at a better time.  I stopped what I was doing, closed my eyes and told Jesus what I wanted him to do for me, since he asked. 

The concern, the worry pretty much left.  Especially after some of the things that happened this morning that can only be described as Jesus doing exactly what I asked.  The wish-washy daughter was no longer wish-washy.  I can’t give too much detail, not as much as I want to share, but let me just say, I give all the glory to God because of his love for me and you.   There was a tad bit of worry, but that was mostly worry that my ducks weren’t in a row. 

Conclusion

How did the mediation go?  No change in current circumstances.  BUT, after my talk with Jesus and God, things should be a little better in the future. 

Because of HIM

SC