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I’m at one of my weakest points and he knows it. He’s found a hole in my defense’s and is trying desperately to chip away at the edges and reach my core. He’s party successful.
He’s found a way to shift my focus from where it should be. Always keeping me focused on my infirmary. Worse, keeping me focused on me.
Keeping me locked in pain to the point of becoming nothing but a clump of flesh. A miserable, peace-less, worthless, ball of soft tissue.
The cries of joy have turned into screams of agony. The winks of love are now winces of hate.
Laughter is just a memory. Something that was; cause now even the laughter pains me.
The joy that was me. In me. With me. He’s carting off in droves.
I feel powerless to stop him. It’s another of his stupid tactics; he uses it well.
Though I know he is there, more importantly I too know that you, God, are there. For if you weren’t I’m afraid I wouldn’t be.
I’m reaching out. I’m hanging on. I’m going to live again because You love me so. You showed me so.
Because of HIM,
SC
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2 Comments
Brother -
the insights you provided me on Job are coming to mind – God has a plan with this experience as a part of it to kick off something great…
my prayers continue for you brother – i hate seeing you going through this pain!
-D
I love you brother, and I am praying for you. I am at a loss as to what else to say, I wish I could take your pain away.
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