A Little Bit Older

Birthday Cake

Tomorrow (Monday, 4/26/2010) I’ll be a little bit older.  I’ll be 37 years in the making, though not real sure about 37 years the wiser.  For the record, I know I get a little bit older every day, every instance actually.  Not sure why birthdays make us feel that much older.  I guess because it actually goes on record.  But, I’m rambling now.

Scheduled Test

Tomorrow I also go in for my myelogram (See Taking Another Test).  Pretty excited about that.  If this test finds something definitive that would be a pretty good birthday present.  At this point in my life that’s just about the only thing I really want.  The test is at 10am.  No coffee for me in the morning.

Finishing Up

Well, I’m a bit surprised at how few thoughts I’ve had recently.  Makes for an uninteresting blog entry huh?  But, it is what it is.  If I can ever get me well, maybe my brain can start working again. Until then, I just wanted to give you guys an update.  Appreciate any prayers for the test, for life actually.

 

Because of HIM,

SC

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Taking Another Test

Had my monthly visit with the pain management doctor today.  I love
traveling around this time of year even on those short 45 minute trips.AP Myelogram

The weather was perfect.  Perfect for driving with the windows rolled down.  Well, except for the allergens in the air.  They kind of got too me on the way back.  Even in pain, it was a nice drive.

The visit was pretty normal.  Trying different combinations of medicine in hopes of getting rid of one of the two I’m having to use.  We haven’t had much luck the last few months.  It seems only one combination/strength manages the pain, and even then it’s not perfect.

After surgery, it really is a drag to have to continue to battle this pest.  It was a drag before surgery, don’t get me wrong, but I just had hopes that don’t seem to be realities.  Add to this the fact that my insurance will end at the end of May and the medicines are so expensive without insurance, I just keep getting dragged and dragged.  But, I’ll make it through it.

I am going to have another test soon.  At least before I lose insurance.  They are going to setup a procedure called a myelogram at my request.  Something is wrong back there in my back.

They tell me they don’t see anything wrong, but I can feel something wrong.  So, maybe this test will show something, anything, another option that can be fixed so I can reach my ultimate goal of being pain free and taking zero medication.

It’s going to take a couple of days for them to get back to me, but at least there is another option.  If this doesn’t show anything then I guess the pain is all in my head.  But, I don’t have many headaches.

Because of HIM,

SC

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Another Dreamer

Ever had a dream while you were sleeping?

Kidding.

A couple of nights ago I had one of those dreams that is sticking with me and I for the life of me don’t know why THIS dream is. If it was something spectacular I could understand.  But this one?  This is for all of you dream interpreters.  What do you think it means?

Opening Statement

In starting up my business, I’ve been going around to several small businesses and introducing myself and my company to them, handing a business card, and talking to those who wanted to continue the conversation.  I’ve also been trying to dress the way I want the business to look.  Slacks, button-up shirt and a tie.  Professional.  I’ve always liked wearing ties and I guess it’s because they make me feel good.  Best I can come up with.

The Dream

I can’t remember a lot of the dream, but it’s enough.  In my dream I was on one of those business ventures and I had someone filming me as I did my introduction and such.  I don’t know this for a fact, but it makes sense, I guess I was wanting something to study to see how I could improve these meetings.

When I reviewed the recording, something horrible happened.  Rather, something horrible HAD happened and when I woke up from the dream, I was almost sick to my stomach.  It felt that real.

Anyway, I couldn’t make out my face in the film but the camera moved from in front of me to behind me and the angle was down from a sitting position and I was standing up in front of the camera facing away and toward the client.  I thought it was neat that I couldn’t see myself even in film in the dream.  I don’t know if I’ve ever seen me in my own dreams.  But, that’s not the point.

So I had on this nice white shirt with red stripes, blue slacks, I can’t remember the tie.  I do remember that I thought my hair looked in just the right place.  I looked, professional.  Another thing I had on, apparently, was Strawberry Shortcake underwear, and they must have been way to big for me because they were pulled up to the middle of my back and were very clearly visible through my shirt! 

The thought in my dream occurred to me that everyone that I had “professionally” met that day had seen that very image that you just saw.  I was so embarrassed when I saw it and like I said, when I woke up I was almost sick.  It was a horrible image! 

I do apologize for said image, but why in the world would I dream that and why in the world is it staying with me so easily?  Says something about the thoughts I have while sleeping.

 

Because of HIM,

SC

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